Super size edition to make up for last week's lacking post.
1) I tried to make those apple pie/ crescent roll things I saw on pinterest. My first problem was in getting the tube open. I had to cut it, thus cutting some of the rolls. Then the apple pie filling didn't fit very well, and the rolls didn't cover it. In the end they tasted okay, but I'm not a crescent roll fan. I did dip them melted butter and brown sugar and sprinkled brown sugar on top. Rob said they tasted good, but they still had that crescent roll taste. They did taste good with vanilla ice cream though. next time I think that I would add a little vanilla to the butter mixture. A for effort though (and apple, ha).
2) I wanted to get some more frer and digital pregnancy tests since I only had one frer. I have plenty of wondfo's but i wanted something else. We were at Walmart last weekend and so I decided to get some. I know they are more expensive, but I like them. So the cashier (who actually was the friendliest cashier I've ever encountered there; we don't shop there often though), was all like you know there is .88 cent tests. I used them every time I got pregnant. That is the Walmart I expected. Ha.
3) We got some of our Christmas lights up over the weekend. We just did the ones on the front of the house, but it was so nice out I wanted to do some as opposed to doing it in 30 degree weather. We weren't the only ones in our neighborhood putting them up either. However they are not hooked up; we still need some extension cords. We got some light clips on clearance last year and Rob said they made it a lot easier.
4) My sister started cleaning our house earlier this year. She cleaned the floors, made the beds, cleaned the bathrooms and the kitchen. Last week was her last week and I had to clean this week. Boo. I cleaned the shower, then cleaned the nasty trash can. In the shower. Then cleaned the shower again. I also cleaned the sliding door track out with a q-tip. That was the worst chore ever. I kid you not, I threw up because it was so gross. It was filled with dirt, hair and even a dead spider.
5) Rob went hunting Wednesday after work (gun season started yesterday) and I always sleep crappy when he's gone. Yesterday I was up 5 times from 11 until 6:30. I was so tired today. I had caffeine for the first time today since last Saturday.
6) *TMI disclaimer* I think I may be developing a UTI. It hurts when I pee badly. My guess is it's from the applicator I was using with the progesterone pill. I was using the applicator from the pre-seed lube and I was washing it and reusing it, and I must not have cleaned it well enough. So that sucks.
7) I went to a 31 party at my boss's house last night. I got a new wallet, a small tote to give as a gift, and another tote. They are expensive however. I do have one wallet I got over a year ago and I still use it, but I wanted a more neutral pattern. I'm not a very sociable person a lot of times. I am a homebody and the party didn't start until 7pm so it was hard to muster up the energy to go. I did it though and it was fun. I'm glad I did it. I'm trying to not be such a hermit. I am trying to make plans to have a drink with a friend tomorrow, and I'm meeting my sister in law and niece with my other niece to watch my brother in law and nephew march in the Santa Clause parade. I really miss my niece and don't know the last time I saw her (she's 7), so despite having to get up way early and drive downtown and stand in the cold I'm sure it will be fun.
8) I peed in a cup tonight, and tested. I saw the faintest of lines, but I have no doubt it's just an evap line. I'm only 9dpo according to ff (although I think I may be 10dpo) so it's super early and it was late in the afternoon so my pee would have been so diluted. I couldn't possible get pregnant a third cycle in a row. I'll test in the morning anyway.
9) I usually wash my hair every other day, but I read this blog post earlier this week (No poo'). I washed my hair on Sunday and didn't wash it again until Thursday and it did start to look greasy but it really wasn't that bad. I think I'm going to try it. I didn't use the baking soda/cider mix; I just used water, but I might try that.
10) I love love Christmas but I'm kind of getting nervous that this holiday season might be tough for me with the recent losses. I really don't want to be a Debbie downer this year.
And that's what I got for now. That may be the longest post I've written.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Friday, November 9, 2012
Friday Four 11/9
*I couldn't think of five things this week*
1) I had the last week off work, because the family I work for was on vacation. I did nothing the whole week. I got nothing done and just sat at home on the computer and watched tv. I watched all of season 3 of glee, I watched all the episodes of 'Traffic Light' on netflix and started watching Hart of Dixie.
These next few are baby related moments of this week.
2) I told my sister in law (Rob's sister) on Monday when they came over for a birthday dinner for father in law. She was super awesome and I'm glad I told her. I love my sister, but I feel like she isn't as sensitive to the fact I've lost 2 babies and talks about her pregnancy all the time, but I'm getting closer to the point that it doesn't sting so much. And like I've said before I would never tell her that, because than she would never tell me anything. So besides my sister and her husband and Rob's sister and her husband (I told her she could tell him) no other family/friends now.
I will probably tell my best friend when she visits over thanksgiving. I didn't want to tell her that over the phone, although I did tell my sister through text.
3)My sister was telling me she had a dream this week in which we announced that I was pregnant at her baby shower. She's almost 16 weeks (which is crazy, she finds out in 3 1/2 weeks what the sex of the baby is; I say I'm getting a nephew). I guess it's possible that something like could happen. Showers usually happen around 28-34 weeks right?
4) This may sound silly, but until this week I had never thought of my losses in terms of a son or daughter. Thinking it that way made me sad. Those were my daughters or sons or both. It's strange to think they were my kids. I guess while I thought of them as my babies that was it. Thinking of them any other way makes it seem more real for sure. Does any of that make sense?
1) I had the last week off work, because the family I work for was on vacation. I did nothing the whole week. I got nothing done and just sat at home on the computer and watched tv. I watched all of season 3 of glee, I watched all the episodes of 'Traffic Light' on netflix and started watching Hart of Dixie.
These next few are baby related moments of this week.
2) I told my sister in law (Rob's sister) on Monday when they came over for a birthday dinner for father in law. She was super awesome and I'm glad I told her. I love my sister, but I feel like she isn't as sensitive to the fact I've lost 2 babies and talks about her pregnancy all the time, but I'm getting closer to the point that it doesn't sting so much. And like I've said before I would never tell her that, because than she would never tell me anything. So besides my sister and her husband and Rob's sister and her husband (I told her she could tell him) no other family/friends now.
I will probably tell my best friend when she visits over thanksgiving. I didn't want to tell her that over the phone, although I did tell my sister through text.
3)My sister was telling me she had a dream this week in which we announced that I was pregnant at her baby shower. She's almost 16 weeks (which is crazy, she finds out in 3 1/2 weeks what the sex of the baby is; I say I'm getting a nephew). I guess it's possible that something like could happen. Showers usually happen around 28-34 weeks right?
4) This may sound silly, but until this week I had never thought of my losses in terms of a son or daughter. Thinking it that way made me sad. Those were my daughters or sons or both. It's strange to think they were my kids. I guess while I thought of them as my babies that was it. Thinking of them any other way makes it seem more real for sure. Does any of that make sense?
Monday, November 5, 2012
Wine, Art & Ovulation
Random Monday ramblings. :)
1) I bought a bottle of wine today. I think this maybe the first time I didn't get carded. Boo
2) I made this last night/today. Painted a canvas, used vinyl letters, painted it again and peeled them off. It's not perfect; the letters are a little crooked, and that may bother me, but I like it and it's a good reminder for me. It's hanging in the kitchen and I can't miss it.
3) I got a +opk today (cd 18). Last cycle after my first c/p I didn't get one until day 22. So this is more what a 'normal' cycle is to me so yeah for that! I was worried that I might have ovulated on cd15 which is way early for me, because I had horrid cramps and my temps had gone up for a few days, but they were down a little today. I tested and when my 5 minutes were up I checked and there was no mistaking it for a negative. That line was really dark. Usually before getting a clear positive I have a test that I have a hard time telling if the lines were the same. Not this cycle!
1) I bought a bottle of wine today. I think this maybe the first time I didn't get carded. Boo
2) I made this last night/today. Painted a canvas, used vinyl letters, painted it again and peeled them off. It's not perfect; the letters are a little crooked, and that may bother me, but I like it and it's a good reminder for me. It's hanging in the kitchen and I can't miss it.
3) I got a +opk today (cd 18). Last cycle after my first c/p I didn't get one until day 22. So this is more what a 'normal' cycle is to me so yeah for that! I was worried that I might have ovulated on cd15 which is way early for me, because I had horrid cramps and my temps had gone up for a few days, but they were down a little today. I tested and when my 5 minutes were up I checked and there was no mistaking it for a negative. That line was really dark. Usually before getting a clear positive I have a test that I have a hard time telling if the lines were the same. Not this cycle!
Friday, November 2, 2012
Liebster Blog Award
Nicole at In Nic's mind nominated me for a Liebster Blog Award. Thanks! The bloggers that I would love to nominate have already been nominated so I have to think about who I would nominate.
These are the questions from Nicole.
1. What is your favorite movie?
2. What is your pet peeve?
It drives me nuts when people don't use their turn signals. The worst is 4 waystops when you want to go straight and you think the person across from you is also going straight; nope they are turning left. Ugh. Annoying. Also hate when people cut you off and turn and there isn't a car behind you.
3. Which one country would you want relocate to if you had the opportunity?
Somewhere warm. Not sure which country. I have a friend who loved Costa Rica. Maybe there?
4. What is your biggest fear?
Tornado's
5. What is your favorite time of year?
Summer. I love the warm weather.
6. What do you miss most about being a kid?
I miss having an imagination. Honestly I try to play with the kids and I am not nearly as creative as they are. It's so amazing the things that they come up with.
7. What is the last movie you watched or book you read?
I read this book. <-------. It was a prize I won. I actually enjoyed it. If the next ones in the series were cheaper I'd probably buy them.
8. Favorite color?
Green
9. If you friends had to describe you in one word what would it be?
Home-body. Okay that's two, but I really do like being home. I've gotten less social as I get older. I'm not really sure why.
10. Are you a morning or night person?
I feel more productive at night even though I don't like to be out late.
11. Silver or gold?
Silver. I think the look of gold is kind of dated.
Friday Five 11/2
I used to watch it all the time, but hadn't seen it years. I wanted to watch it as soon as I found it, but Rob wasn't so into it. So I had to wait until he went hunting, but I think it might be going on my Christmas list..
2) I have the lamest post titles. I'm so uncreative.
3) I really missed my old work kiddos and I was babysitting in the neighborhood on Tuesday so I stopped by to see them. It had been a month and a half since I saw them and I usually saw them 4 times a week, so I really missed them. It was great to surprise them. Then on Halloween they surprise me and came to my house. They live 20 minutes away and only came to my house, I don't think they can know how much that meant to me.
Speaking on Halloween here's a cute trick or treater story. This little boy, probably around 4 came to the door and I gave him a handful of suckers, maybe 3 or 4. As he turned back around I heard him say "she sure gave me lots of suckers" to his parents. It was adorable!
5) I had a little sad moment today. It wasn't really from seeing Libby but I was with my sister and we went to the mall first and she wanted to go to motherhood maternity and I didn't go to another store because I honestly didn't think about it. And that alone could have been okay, but I swear all she talks about is baby related, at least 90%. I can understand that she is just excited, and maybe I will be the same way, but I wouldn't go on and on in front of someone who has had recent losses.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Doctors appointment
So I went and met with a Ob/gyn today, and I think it went well.
I found the building and parked no problem but finding the office was a little tougher. The entrance was on level one so I assumed that meant the bottom. Right? No, it wasn't. So after walking down the stairs in the ramp and seeing the numbers go up, I just used the elevator to get to level 1. Then when I got in the building I was a little confused, and went up the stairwell because I knew it was on the third floor. Then there were random sitting areas and several offices, but I found the one I wanted and it was easy from there.
I liked the dr. and felt like I have a plan going forward. I had brought my last few charts and he looked at them and actually knew what he was looking at. I was happy with that. He thinks that there may be an issue with my lp, which I kind of wondered about, but said progesterone will help with that so after I confirm ovulation to start taking 100mg vaginally (I'm sure y'all wanted to know that. I can see the jokes from dh when I tell him). I asked if I should wait a cycle or keep going, and he said because they were early losses that I don't have to wait.
So I think I want to try this cycle. I know Rob will be happy. He never wanted to take a break, and not that I really did, but I was thinking it more for mental health reasons. I feel better with a plan of action. The doctor said to take the progesterone after ovulation for 12 days and if I do get a positive test to call right away to come in and have my levels checked. They don't check them usually unless you are pregnant. If I am not pregnant than I just stop taking it. If I do get pregnant and have another loss they may do genetic testing.
So anyway, I feel pretty good about how things went. Yeah!
I found the building and parked no problem but finding the office was a little tougher. The entrance was on level one so I assumed that meant the bottom. Right? No, it wasn't. So after walking down the stairs in the ramp and seeing the numbers go up, I just used the elevator to get to level 1. Then when I got in the building I was a little confused, and went up the stairwell because I knew it was on the third floor. Then there were random sitting areas and several offices, but I found the one I wanted and it was easy from there.
I liked the dr. and felt like I have a plan going forward. I had brought my last few charts and he looked at them and actually knew what he was looking at. I was happy with that. He thinks that there may be an issue with my lp, which I kind of wondered about, but said progesterone will help with that so after I confirm ovulation to start taking 100mg vaginally (I'm sure y'all wanted to know that. I can see the jokes from dh when I tell him). I asked if I should wait a cycle or keep going, and he said because they were early losses that I don't have to wait.
So I think I want to try this cycle. I know Rob will be happy. He never wanted to take a break, and not that I really did, but I was thinking it more for mental health reasons. I feel better with a plan of action. The doctor said to take the progesterone after ovulation for 12 days and if I do get a positive test to call right away to come in and have my levels checked. They don't check them usually unless you are pregnant. If I am not pregnant than I just stop taking it. If I do get pregnant and have another loss they may do genetic testing.
So anyway, I feel pretty good about how things went. Yeah!
Monday, October 29, 2012
Emergency Kit
I'm in Michigan so Hurricane Sandy & the whole Frankenstorm things won't really be a problem here, but I'm thinking of all my friends on the East coast because they are about to get hit with a ton of crap.
I have to say I'm really glad that I have an emergency kit that has enough food and water for several days. I also have clothes (the old stuff we wouldn't normally wear) including hats & gloves. I have basic first aid supplies, blankets, towels, a flashlight. I have to get a solar powered flashlight/radio. I haven't been able to find them in the stores at this time of year. If they don't have them in the next month or so I will just buy one online, although I might just do it anyway. I also need a way to cook food. I have canned food (I do have a can opened in there). Rob suggested we buy some mini propane tanks and a mini grill since ours is nasty. I also want to through in some hand warmer packets that Rob uses for hunting.
I had bought a big tote to put it all in, but that won't fit in my car, so I have a few small 18 gallon totes, and a few small boxes.
I even have an emergency book, and this weekend I made a second one to keep somewhere else. It has important phone numbers (all our family), contact numbers for our life insurance, home insurance and car insurance. Not health though. I'll just copy the card. It has a fairly detailed assement of what is in our house and replacement value. Rob says that I am an insurance person's nightmare because I know exactly what there is. ha. I do plan on taking some more pictures as well.
The book has a copy of our marriage liscense and my birth certificate. I don't know where Rob's is.
Seriously I'm glad I have this stuff. I just want to make a mini kit for the car. I don't know what else I am missing. What else should I have in the book or kit?
I have to say I'm really glad that I have an emergency kit that has enough food and water for several days. I also have clothes (the old stuff we wouldn't normally wear) including hats & gloves. I have basic first aid supplies, blankets, towels, a flashlight. I have to get a solar powered flashlight/radio. I haven't been able to find them in the stores at this time of year. If they don't have them in the next month or so I will just buy one online, although I might just do it anyway. I also need a way to cook food. I have canned food (I do have a can opened in there). Rob suggested we buy some mini propane tanks and a mini grill since ours is nasty. I also want to through in some hand warmer packets that Rob uses for hunting.
I had bought a big tote to put it all in, but that won't fit in my car, so I have a few small 18 gallon totes, and a few small boxes.
I even have an emergency book, and this weekend I made a second one to keep somewhere else. It has important phone numbers (all our family), contact numbers for our life insurance, home insurance and car insurance. Not health though. I'll just copy the card. It has a fairly detailed assement of what is in our house and replacement value. Rob says that I am an insurance person's nightmare because I know exactly what there is. ha. I do plan on taking some more pictures as well.
The book has a copy of our marriage liscense and my birth certificate. I don't know where Rob's is.
Seriously I'm glad I have this stuff. I just want to make a mini kit for the car. I don't know what else I am missing. What else should I have in the book or kit?
Sunday, October 28, 2012
A blog post that I found.
I found this Perfect Post on a blog that I follow. I hate to make everything I post be about this subject so I'll keep it short, but I think it was a great post and wanted to share.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Friday Five 10/26
1) Biggie, and not really new news, but I had my second loss last weekend, thus no Friday five last week. I posted about it here. This is an update post. I did tell my sister yesterday about it. She knew about the first one. The only other thing I've come to realize is that I guess I kind of assumed people got pregnant when they wanted to. I never thought that they may have had struggles of their own, and that's probably because they aren't talked about. So then I think I want to talk about it, because if that can help someone it's good. But I am not to the point where I can talk about it without being sad. Someday....
2)I painted the spare room in the basement last week. I won the paint months ago and haven't gotten to it because a few things needed to be done it that room first. The paint looked white when I poured it out on the tray, and it's kind of a creamy grayish color. I think I might end up doing an accent wall in the room though. It's a little to light of a color for me. I choose this color Sheep's wool. I was proud of my painting skills this time around. I usually push to hard on the roller and get drips, but not this time. :) Despite my cramping I finished it on Saturday when Rob was hunting. It gave me something to do and kept my mind distracted.
Rob replaced the light fixture and that made a difference. I was going to scrape the popcorn ceiling and I was sure I could have rocked it. I read about how to do it, but in the end I was just lazy. I have one small section to finish painting though. There was a pile of the old trim in the way and I didn't want to have to keep moving it around and I didn't have a proper way to dispose of it at the time. It was to much for the garbage can.
We have to get new trim, but we'll have to borrow a truck for that. Rob is going to replace the other outlet with a tamper proof one. I need to replace the window of insulate it better, and put up a closet door or something there, but then it will be done.
3) On Sunday when Rob was hunting again I went to Michaels and bought stuff for several craft projects. I'm going to make puzzle blocks for my nephew for christmas. I found the idea here (Fabric blocks) I'm taking scrapbook paper, cutting it and using modge podge to put it on. Total cost will be under $10. I have a gift for him that I bought cheap months ago, and one that I won so he will be all set.
4) I just found out this week that I will have a week off of work. The Friday after Halloween until the next Friday. They booked a last minute vacation. I'm super excited, but worried that I'll want to spend money in my free time. I need to be productive.
5) I finally found an ob/gyn that I could get into without having to fax my medical records from my pcp before I could even get an appt. So I have an appt on 10/30 at 10:30 (I know that nobody cares what time it is; I just though that was kind of funny). While I don't expect answers at this one, it will get me established somewhere at least.
2)I painted the spare room in the basement last week. I won the paint months ago and haven't gotten to it because a few things needed to be done it that room first. The paint looked white when I poured it out on the tray, and it's kind of a creamy grayish color. I think I might end up doing an accent wall in the room though. It's a little to light of a color for me. I choose this color Sheep's wool. I was proud of my painting skills this time around. I usually push to hard on the roller and get drips, but not this time. :) Despite my cramping I finished it on Saturday when Rob was hunting. It gave me something to do and kept my mind distracted.
Rob replaced the light fixture and that made a difference. I was going to scrape the popcorn ceiling and I was sure I could have rocked it. I read about how to do it, but in the end I was just lazy. I have one small section to finish painting though. There was a pile of the old trim in the way and I didn't want to have to keep moving it around and I didn't have a proper way to dispose of it at the time. It was to much for the garbage can.
We have to get new trim, but we'll have to borrow a truck for that. Rob is going to replace the other outlet with a tamper proof one. I need to replace the window of insulate it better, and put up a closet door or something there, but then it will be done.
3) On Sunday when Rob was hunting again I went to Michaels and bought stuff for several craft projects. I'm going to make puzzle blocks for my nephew for christmas. I found the idea here (Fabric blocks) I'm taking scrapbook paper, cutting it and using modge podge to put it on. Total cost will be under $10. I have a gift for him that I bought cheap months ago, and one that I won so he will be all set.
4) I just found out this week that I will have a week off of work. The Friday after Halloween until the next Friday. They booked a last minute vacation. I'm super excited, but worried that I'll want to spend money in my free time. I need to be productive.
5) I finally found an ob/gyn that I could get into without having to fax my medical records from my pcp before I could even get an appt. So I have an appt on 10/30 at 10:30 (I know that nobody cares what time it is; I just though that was kind of funny). While I don't expect answers at this one, it will get me established somewhere at least.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Disorganized thoughts
I have a lot to say and it's all over the place so just be forewarned.
For now though I'm just taking it one day at a time.
A girl I am fb friends with and used to work with just lost a baby yesterday. She had bleeding in the morning, went to the ER and they did an ultrasound, baby had a good heartbeat. Later that evening she had more bleeding and bad cramping and went back to the ER and her baby was gone. I'm not close with her but this stuff breaks my heart. She was 15 weeks along.
Times like this make me wonder which I'd prefer; a) never getting a positive test or b)getting a positive and losing the baby shortly after. Her case seems like it would always be the worst. You see the baby and hear the baby and then it's gone. But at least she has a picture to remember it by. All I have is a picture of a positive test to show I was pregnat, and I'm not sure if I really even have those. I may have deleted them. (I am in no way saying that one loss is worse than another; a loss is a loss; but it is one easier to deal with? I'd say my case is a crap ton easier)
So Rob wants to keep trying, but I want to take a cycle off. I think anyway. I can't even believe how lucky we have been in getting pregnant and I don't believe that we would get that lucky again and I am not sure what a third c/p would do to me.
I don't know if I can give up totally control though. I say I need a break but I like knowing what is happening. I am temping but I've missed 2 days this cycle (and it's only day 6). Like today I hadn't completely forgotten but I had already hit the snooze a few times so I didn't want to temp. It seems like I remember 5 minutes after waking up and then I'm like crap, it's too late. I am still early in the cycle though.
I have a doctors appointment next week. Hopefully I can come up with a plan of action. I want to talk about if my lp is an issue, and if my progesterone may be low.
I have my good days where I want to keep going and just figure out the issue, and then I have my bad days where I cry and think it's not fair that I've lost 2 babies (and they were babies even if they were as small as a dot).
I think it is the worst when my sister texts me telling me about how her nt test went great and she's 13 weeks. I let it go without saying anything because she doesn't know about the 2nd loss, and I don't want to make her feel bad about anything that isn't her fault. It stings a little though.
For now though I'm just taking it one day at a time.
A girl I am fb friends with and used to work with just lost a baby yesterday. She had bleeding in the morning, went to the ER and they did an ultrasound, baby had a good heartbeat. Later that evening she had more bleeding and bad cramping and went back to the ER and her baby was gone. I'm not close with her but this stuff breaks my heart. She was 15 weeks along.
Times like this make me wonder which I'd prefer; a) never getting a positive test or b)getting a positive and losing the baby shortly after. Her case seems like it would always be the worst. You see the baby and hear the baby and then it's gone. But at least she has a picture to remember it by. All I have is a picture of a positive test to show I was pregnat, and I'm not sure if I really even have those. I may have deleted them. (I am in no way saying that one loss is worse than another; a loss is a loss; but it is one easier to deal with? I'd say my case is a crap ton easier)
So Rob wants to keep trying, but I want to take a cycle off. I think anyway. I can't even believe how lucky we have been in getting pregnant and I don't believe that we would get that lucky again and I am not sure what a third c/p would do to me.
I don't know if I can give up totally control though. I say I need a break but I like knowing what is happening. I am temping but I've missed 2 days this cycle (and it's only day 6). Like today I hadn't completely forgotten but I had already hit the snooze a few times so I didn't want to temp. It seems like I remember 5 minutes after waking up and then I'm like crap, it's too late. I am still early in the cycle though.
I have a doctors appointment next week. Hopefully I can come up with a plan of action. I want to talk about if my lp is an issue, and if my progesterone may be low.
I have my good days where I want to keep going and just figure out the issue, and then I have my bad days where I cry and think it's not fair that I've lost 2 babies (and they were babies even if they were as small as a dot).
I think it is the worst when my sister texts me telling me about how her nt test went great and she's 13 weeks. I let it go without saying anything because she doesn't know about the 2nd loss, and I don't want to make her feel bad about anything that isn't her fault. It stings a little though.
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