Hug your loved ones.

Generally I don't write these Debbie downer depressing posts, but here it is. 

Last night my dad called to tell me that my brother's former girlfriend, my niece's mother, lost her dad to a heart attack yesterday.  

This comes a week after learning that one of the sweetest ladies I know from church found out that her chemo didn't work, and that her leukemia had returned for the third or fourth time and that at this point nothing is working.  She's now home with hospice care. 

These last few weeks of pregnancy have left me short tempered with Rob.  I don't have patience with him and I hate who I've become.  I never wanted to be 'that' wife.   And if something were to happen to him, I would not want to know that my last interactions with him were me being mad and angry.  

So from this moment I'm going to make an effort to be nicer, not just to Rob but to everyone.

I'm going to call my family more and stop over and visit my parents more.  

I am lucky enough to live so close to my family and I want baby girl to have the chance to know them as well and know how much she is loved by them. 

I know life isn't easy, but I don't want to feel as if I have regrets for things I did/didn't do. 

Day 13-Something you regret.

I just posted in yesterday's blog challenge how I miss not having regrets.

While I've loved working with kids I regret not getting a 'real job'  I don't mean to say my job isn't important and worthy.  I feel like the 5 years I spent in college and the money I spent on tuition is wasted since I'm not using that degree. 

Day 12-Something I miss

I miss having no regrets about the way my life turned out.  I am happy with who and where I am, but I do have regrets and wish at times things would/could have been different.

I miss the feeling of being able to relax and enjoy the pregnancy.  Two early losses have jaded me.

I miss taking walks around the neighborhood.  Michigan in the winter makes that difficult.  I also miss fresh air because I hibernate for the most part in the winter. 

I miss flip flops and sandals and not having to wear coats and mittens every time I go outside.