I think I'm out this cycle

I know I'm only 11dpo, but I've gotten positives by this point both times (although the first was super faint).

I have mixed feelings because on one side I'm bummed, but I almost think I will be relieved.  The farther past ovulation I got the more I kind of wish we would have taken a cycle off.  I never expected to get pregnant 3 cycles in a row, but I am kind of freaking out about what if it happened.  I really don't think I am ready for that.

I know if I am pregnant I can't change it; and I hope that the progesterone would help, but the thought of a third loss really freaks me out.  I am filled with anxiety just waiting for my period to start.