Monday, December 2, 2013

8 week update ~ Eleanor


Switching it up by starting with pictures, although since that is really the best part of the update, I wonder who will stick around to read the rest. Haha.

Also you can always follow me on instagram for pictures (See right side bar or my user name is kelle017)

Favorite picture of the week
We borrowed a bumbo this week.  She seems to like it.
She doesn't appear to be thankful for me in this picture.









Breastfeeding: I know that it has it's own section every week but it's tough, and I need a place to share where I'm at in hopes that others have been there and can offer advice if needed.

So at thanksgiving I was talking to my aunt (who if you are reading this thanks!) about how things were going and I mentioned that her latch on the left side was causing lots of pain.  I told her how the tip of my nipple would sometimes turn white after she nursed.  Sometimes it would be that way right after she nurses and sometimes it would take a minute.  And it would hurt sometimes.  I would put on breast pads just to have a barrier.  

She said that it happens when the baby clamps down and restricts blood flow and the pain is blood returning.  And I've said it feels like she is chomping down or biting down.  So when I got home that night I did some research and found that there is something called a clamp down reflex.  

Now I thought she might have a tongue tie based on symptoms a few weeks ago, and I briefly wondered if it was thrush (but decided against it because she didn't have the white spots in her mouth, and I think she would have transferred it between breasts, although I could be wrong)

I do think this clamp down reflex might be the issue but on a mild level.  It can happen if the baby has a traumatic birth or medical interventions.  I don't think Eleanor had a traumatic birth but maybe it was.

She doesn't have a lot of the other symptoms such as poor weight gain or milk ejection issues )she has adequate wet/dirty diapers so I'm not worried about that) but I wonder if she just has a mild case.  She has a doctors appointment next week (ummm. 2 month checkup already), so I might ask then..

On the plus note the research said most babies grow out of it, so I've got high hopes.

Oh and I realized that I might actually be feeling my let down.  It's almost a painful heavy feeling, but I felt it one day on the right while nursing her on the left and almost right after noticed I was leaking milk out of the right.  I don't usually leak when I feel it or not enough to go through my bra.

Sleep:
She's doing well at night.  She'll go 4-5 hour stretches.  And she'd probably go longer if I let her, but sometimes I will wake her up to nurse because I need relief.  Sorry E!

She stopped liking her arms swaddled around 4-5 weeks so I didn't do it anymore, but I was stalking her watching her during nap and noticed how much she flails and startles herself.  So I tried Friday night.  She fussed but I didn't give in and release her arms, and she fell asleep and was fine.  Success!

I kind of got lazy this week with her sleeping in the crib. It was hard with us being gone for the holiday and I think it threw her off a little. She did a few times, but I let her nap on me a lot.  I loved those snuggles.

Misc.
She's really ramped up the smiling this week.  I want to melt every time she does it.  She does it with purpose now.  I'll look at her and smile and she will smile back.  Sometimes I'm convinced she knows what I am saying and smiles because how can you be mad at such a cute face?  For example, I wanted to take a nap Saturday.  She had fallen asleep so I got ready to lay down myself and was about to fall asleep and then she woke up.  So I asked her "your not going to let mama take a nap are you?"  cue big smile.  

We still don't have a schedule, but are getting into more of a routine.  She's been pretty consistently waking around 8/8:30 am.  She'll be up for a little bit and then nurse and take a nap around 9:30/10.
Then it's a 30/45 minute nap. After that the afternoon varies, but usually around 5:30/6 she'll take a pretty long nap and then go down for the night between 11 pm-12 am and waking back up around 4 am to nurse

During her morning wake period I try to do tummy time with her or use it to put away laundry or dishes since she seems to be the most receptive with it at this time.

She's been sucking on her hands a lot and they have been turning red.  I put mittens on her hand one night, and that helped, but swaddling helps as well, when she will let me at least.

Me:
I'm doing pretty well.  Nothing really new to report.   

I'm still having the stomach pain.  It was strong enough this week that I took aspirin,  but it really comes and goes.










Thursday, November 28, 2013

Christmas Gift Guide Giveaway


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Monday, November 25, 2013

Eleanor's 7 Week Update





One of my favorite pictures of the last week.


Miscellaneous:
We are getting more social smiles out of her.  They were still sporadic but last night she really got them going.  She went for an hour or so just smiling away.  Rob would say things like "Smile if mom's crazy" and she wouldn't smile.  Then I would say things like "Smile if daddy is stinky" and she would smile.  Girl is totally on my team.  I love her!

Speaking of her being on my team I feel bad sometimes because Rob says she doesn't like him to hold her.  He can set her on the bouncer or lay on the bed with her and she is happy, but she just doesn't like to be held.  She'll be crying and I'll hold her and she'll stop more often than not.  I think it's normal for babies to prefer their moms (especially since I nurse her)

She slept Saturday night from about 10:30-3:30. We were at a friends and she fell asleep after I nursed her, stirred a little when she got in the car seat, and when we took her out.  I tried to nurse her around 1 put she didn't wake up so I let her sleep.  Finally I was able to nurse her around 3:30.  I think she would have slept longer had I let her.  I didn't because of the clogged duct issues (see below)

Last night I nursed her around midnight and didn't nurse her again until 6am.  That was the second night in a row she got a good stretch of sleep.  I didn't feel any more rested though because I still got up a few time (out of habit to use the bathroom).

Rob took her over to my brother in laws on Saturday.  My sister was gone shopping so Ellie & Rob hung out with my brother in law and our seven month old nephew.  They were gone probably 4 1/2 hours.  I've never been away from her for more than an hour and half ( only once) and total time maybe 3 hours so while it was nice, I really missed her.  Like really missed her.  I couldn't wait for her to get home.  

Breastfeeding:  
It still is painful on the left side.  It's always been that side that has been the side that hurts the most.  Occasionally the right side does, but not nearly as often.

I went back to the breastfeeding support group on Thursday.   I'm trying to latch her like they showed me but it's difficult trying to hold my breast and latch her on.  Big boobs are not all people think they are.

I had a clogged duct again on Friday night.  I only slept a few hours the whole night because I was up in pain most of the night.  I couldn't get her to nurse and I couldn't pump.  I also seem to have a hard time with hand expression.  I even looked up you tube videos on tips at 4 am.  I left that screen open on the computer and when Rob saw it I had to explain why I was looking it up. 

I did get the correct size flanges for my pump and it made a world of difference.  I pumped 5 1/2 oz Saturday morning in 25 minutes.  On Thursday I pumped 5 oz in 1 hour 15 minutes.  And since that was the only thing different I can assume that's what did it.  I knew that I had the wrong size ones.  The ones that come standard with the pump weren't working.  I tried a larger size that I borrowed from my sister (they are plastic so it's not really gross to share).  Those didn't work and finding the smaller size was difficult.  I checked several stores and finally had to order them online.  Luckily my sister has amazon prime account so it only took a few days to arrive.

Me:
I had my six week check up last week.  My incision scar looks great, and I have no restrictions anymore. I brought Eleanor so that I could show her off and my ob made a comment about it being her first ob/gyn appointment.  That was a little weird and awkward. Lol. 

I'm sort of going to miss going because I really liked all the nurses.  Even though my ob was very much a to the point, get in, get out kind of doctor, I liked him too.
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Lots of pictures!  She wore the same outfit twice this last week because it was cute so there are a lot of pictures with her in the vest and jeans. 

My other favorite picture of the week.
Watching Tv already
Aunt Ali
Uncle Jared
Eleanor is only 2 days older than Liam.

Nana Urban
Cousins!
Aunt Lisa












Friday, November 22, 2013

Dream Animals Book

Eleanor has quite the collection of books already.  I love books and I love reading to her already.

I love books with simple pictures, but the ones that have the elaborate drawings catch my interest.

Here is one example of a beautifully illustrated book

“You only have to close your eyes, and when you snuggle in, you’ll be carried to your dream tonight, on wing or paw or fin.” The author Emily paints whimsical, dream-like paintings, full of vibrant and stunning colors that is perfect for both you and your child! Dream Animals is the perfect bedtime journey to take your children on. Share the importance of imagination and dreaming with your little ones this holiday, between the ages of 2 - 5 years old.




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Monday, November 18, 2013

Eleanor is six weeks

I got so used to doing my pregnancy updates on Tuesday's that I'm still in that habit, and I have to remind myself her week changes on Monday's.




Breastfeeding:
Nursing got easier last week.  After taking her to the doctor and learning it isn't a tongue tie and she's just going to have a bad latch I decided I needed to deal with it because I'm not going to quit breastfeeding and I hate pumping for an hour only to get a small amount out. 

Once I forced myself to relax during her latch I realized it wasn't so bad, most of the time anyway. And for a few days it was good, but then it got worse again and I actually took  pain meds because it was so bad.

On Thursday I went to a breastfeeding support group with a friend who has a son 2 days younger than Ellie.  It's free and run by 2 board certified lactation consultants.  One of them helped latch her on and she was on there really deep and it didn't hurt, but I can't seem to get her latched on quite like that.  I might go back actually.

I hear conflicting things on beast feeding.  I hear that it shouldn't hurt, but I also hear people say that it does.

I like the little bond that it is creating.  I love when she holds my finger when she is nursing, and that milk drunk smile I get when she's done.

Misc:
I'm still trying to put her in newborn onesie's so she can wear them one last time.  They do fit, but I really should move her up into the next size.

She's really developed that grip this last week.  She grabs onto my hair, which sometimes she pulls and my shirt.  And my boobs when I nurse her, which is cute, but sometimes it does hurt.


Sleep:
Eleanor has been sleeping better lately (she's currently napping on me and even though I'm hungry and need to use the bathroom I can't make myself get up).  During the nighttime she will usually sleep a 3 hour stretch before she starts to stir.  She probably would sleep longer, but I usually feed her at that point.  Maybe I don't need to do that anymore and can let her guide when she eats at night.  Any advice on that?

During the day as soon as she starts to make or give cues that she is sleepy, I put her in a sleep sack (if it's a swaddler I still leave her arms out, she doesn't like them in), and if she will take a pacifier I give her that, and put her in the rock n play, or if I think it will work, the crib. Most of the time it works.

Me:
My bleeding has stopped.  Actually it stopped a while ago, but I was still spotting, and now that's all done. 

My restless legs/arms has been acting back up this last week. It got so much better after delivery and I'm annoyed it came back.


Rob and I have been going through a little rough patch. I know it's still an adjustment though so I'm not really concerned.  We try to talk it out and come up with a solution or resolution, but it doesn't always happen.  I get annoyed that he is gone hunting or doing hunting related things a lot.  I know he loves to do it, but I had told him multiple times (even before she was born) that I didn't want him to go away last weekend, and he still did it.   I made it through the weekend, but it would have been nice to have him here, just to give me the chance to shower in peace or have a few minutes to myself.

I also get frustrated that when he comes home he holds her, or puts her in the bouncer and watches tv and gets to relax, but I still don't.  I still have to do dishes, and laundry etc... I know that lots of other moms, especially those who work outside the home feel this way also.  I wish I had free time, or at least more of it. 

I don't mean to bash on Rob, because he is helpful with her and he does work hard to provide for us.  And he does do the dishes occasionally or help with dinner if it's been a rough day.  I guess I don't really know what I want from him.








Thursday, November 14, 2013

50% Vistaprint Cards

I love Vistaprint!  I've mentioned it before, but they have great products and great prices.  Our wedding stuff came from there, Ellie's birth announcements, and other photo gifts. 

They have a special through the 22nd on holiday cards.   You can get photo cards for around .50 each which is a great deal!


Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Win an ipad mini!



I've seen these gloves for a few years and thought they were kind of silly.  But I also didn't have a smartphone or a phone with a touch screen until earlier this year.  Now that I do, I totally see the appeal in the gloves and might have a pair on my Christmas list (hint hint).

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I know that Eleanor is still a newborn and will only be a few months old at Christmas time, but I'm still really excited for her first Christmas.  I love everything about Christmas and having a child just makes it that much better.  We've already started listening to Christmas music (although at this point it just puts her to sleep, lol).

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Monday, November 11, 2013

Five Weeks Old


With every update I write I just can't believe that she's another week older.  I feel like it was the same way with the pregnancy.  Every week that I wrote another update was another week that flew.

Eleanor:

We've been working on tummy time.  She's not a huge fan, but she does okay for a few minutes.




She's decided that she no longer likes her arms swaddled in her sleep sack.  She doesn't sleep as well (thank you startle reflex), but she is happier.


She also been spitting up more lately.  She doesn't burp despite all my best efforts, and winds up fussier and then spits up.  She may or may not have spit up down my shirt right between my boobs this week.  That was fun. Or not.  That might not have been so fun since Rob wasn't home and she was fussy and wouldn't let me shower.

She's not a good day time sleeper.  She will take little 10-20 minute naps here and there but that it's.  So I'm learning that sometimes if she wakes up to give her a minute before I get her.  I usually get her as soon as she whimpers or makes noise, but I gave her a minute a few times and while she fussed she fell back asleep.  I'm not letting her cry it out; she's way to young for that; If she was really crying or screaming I'd obviously get her.  This is more just little fussing noises.

She also falls asleep to music, from 90's pop music to Christmas music.

I'm trying to get her used to the crib because I worry that transitioning her will be tough, but other than a few minutes a day when I do laundry or wash my hands after changing her she isn't in it.  She fell asleep in the rock n play yesterday and I tried to put her in the crib, but she woke up and then cried.

She's outgrown her newborn size pants (she's getting to long for them) and most of her newborn onesies are getting snug.  I went through her clothes and I realize she has a lot, but she doesn't have very many outfits that actually coordinate and match.  So she's probably going to be in some crazy outfits.

Rob gave her a 5 oz bottle on Friday. And she drank the whole thing.  This was after a 2 oz bottle and nursing for most of the few hours before.  I thought there was no way she would.  That's a lot for a little baby. As a result she slept almost 10 hours. Which would be great except that I couldn't get her to nurse more than 10-15 minutes that whole time so my boobs were so full and pumping didn't help.  I spent most of Saturday trying to help the situation.  When I told Rob no more 5 oz bottles for a while he got almost offended because he was just trying to help.  I wasn't mad; I didn't know she would drink it, and then sleep so long either.

When I started pumping I was getting that much out, and froze it in 5 oz increments, but since it's harder to get much out (which is normal apparently), I usually freeze in 2 oz portions so it doesn't get wasted.  I had to dump a few ounces the other day and I was sad.  That took me 30 minutes to an hour to get.  Breast milk really is liquid gold.

Also she is getting really good about focusing on something.  She watched the fan for several minutes yesterday.

One of her favorite books to look at and read.  I love this book too!



Milk Coma


Me:

Still in sweatpants/yoga pants and maternity bottoms.  I'm mostly okay with that.  I have my follow up appointment next week and I might start doing some more light exercising after that.

I wasn't happy about Rob going away for 3 nights/4 days to hunt this weekend but I accepted it.  He got permission to hunt property right by where he sometimes hunts, and he's going to do that Friday evening since he sees deer there at that time.  That means he won't go up north until Friday night/Saturday if he does go.  That makes me feel a lot better.

I went to the grocery store this last week and while I'd been away from her for a few times (max 30 minutes) I was gone for an hour and a half, which was the longest ever. It was nice, but at the same time I just couldn't wait to get back to her.

This is kind of a weird thing and I'm not sure there is a connection, but whenever I nurse her (or more often than not) my armpits itch.

I started using the nipple shield again.  I hadn't used it for almost a week but I had to because the pain was getting really bad again.

And speaking of pain, my stomach has been hurting me a lot this week.  It's not painful really, just more discomfort.  Sometimes it's a dull throbbing feeling. I haven't used pain meds though.

I'm still a hormonal mess sometimes.  I was nursing Eleanor this morning and watching Good Morning America and there was a marriage proposal and I got all emotional thinking about Eleanor getting married someday.  Yeah. I'm pathetic.