Another weaning post

4 months ago I wrote a post about weaning Eleanor.  

We still are nursing although I have pretty much dropped the morning nursing session and that leaves us with two.  It still makes me feel guilty when she asks for milk and I say no, although usually I can distract her and she actually said 'No milk' when she got up a few days ago.   Today though I almost gave in after having had 4 hours of sleep and just wanting to sit for a minute but I knew I couldn't give in.

I've been nursing her for 20 months.

I've never been away from her for more than ten hours, and that was only a few times when Rob had surgery.  I'm starting to feel this itch to have my body back and have a little more freedom.  

Of course I feel a huge sense of guilt and sadness over it.  Guilt because she loves her milka milka milka. :)

Sadness because I'm going to miss those snuggles so much (getting weepy thinking about it already)

I will especially miss it at night when she curls up in my arms and snuggles in.  I melt.   I know she can go to sleep for other people.  My dad was an expert at getting her down for nap when he would watch her when Rob was sick.  I think Rob could probably do it, but he hasn't yet.  So really being the only one who can put her down get's old.  Yet, knowing I can do something that no one else can do is kind of empowering.  

Although I had hoped to make it until Eleanor turned two, I just don't know if I can.  I think that's okay.  I gave her the best I could. 

I think one of the hardest and guilt inducing parts is that in a perfect world she would wean herself, but she's not so I'm sort of forcing it.  I shouldn't because I should let her decide when she's ready, but nursing has to be mutual and it's getting to be one sided. 

We aren't weaned yet though.  I still have to figure out how to drop the nap time nursing session next and then eventually the nighttime one (obviously that will be the hardest one), but I'm on the path to it.

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I participated in a Influencer Activation on behalf of Influence Central for First Response. I received product samples as well as a promotional item to thank me for my participation.

When I suspected I was pregnant with Eleanor I tested using a First Response Early Result Test.  They were kind of gold standard on the message board I was on and are often referred to as FRER's  

My tests from Eleanor (Jan. 2013)

When I thought I was pregnant I tested as soon as I thought I could.  The top test in the picture above is 10 dpo, so well before my missed period.


Rob & I are hoping to expand our family in the nearish future (now that he's finally feeling better), and so when I was given the opportunity to review a new design from First Response, it was such a perfect fit.

I'm guilty of having peed on my hand trying to test in the past.  The new design of this stick should help eliminate that moment.  The handle is longer, the curved design makes it easier to hold and it has a  50% wider tip.    These may not seem like big deals, but they really will make it easier to test with. 

No matter how faint the line is, a line is a line when your trying to get pregnant. The second line means that there is urinary hcg (human chorionic gonadotropin), which is the pregnancy hormone, detected. 

This test can detect the hcg up to 6 days sooner, and if you test the day of your missed period the test is 99% accurate, and the results can be read in just 3 minutes.  I may be guilty of watching the test just wiling that second line to show up so 3 minutes is no time at all really, but still feels like a lifetime when your hopeful.   

The tests are good no matter when you take it (sometimes women are advised to use first morning urine) and are FDA approved.  You can buy them at drugstores, grocery stores and mass retailers for between $8.99-$15.99

For more information check out the First Response site here